As per usual, I have returned for my year in review post.
I left of on quite a sad note, so maybe I won't start with that. The beginning of this year was somewhat of a blur if I'm being completely honest. I think my motivation dwindled tremendously, and since most of the courses I took in my post-bacc were finished or finishing, this is when I began to experience more of the real rigor of first-year medical school. By the grace of God, I surived and finished the year having passed all my classes. I also don't know when this happened, but I began to focus a lot more on my internal happiness than stressing about those around me and what other think, and I can honestly say that I am in the best mental state that I have been in...maybe ever. I think I realized that at the end of the day, only I really know how to make myself happy, and that led to a lot of self-reflection and will to change, which led to my amazing summer.
Well, as we all know, the summer began on a terrible note, with the passing of my best friend Duo. He was and will always be my main squeeze, and no animal will ever replace him in my heart. He helped me through the most difficult times for over half of my life, and whether he knows it or not, he is a large reason why I never gave up. I still treat him as if he is here, although I know he is having endless playdates with Michael's cat and Katie's dog. He was so wonderful, and I wish I were there for him more, but as I said before, I will never ever forget the fact that he held on until his mommy returned. Love you Duo!
On a much happier note, I had possibly the most amazing summer I've ever had this year. Ever. I flew to California by myself, and while it was short, I loved seeing Pratika and experiencing another part of the country and solo flying. I went to the beach more times than I probably have in total, although one of those times was sadly tainted by the break up of two good friends. I of course went to NYC and NJ as well but spent the large majority of my time in Philly hanging out with friends, doing endless hours of clinic work, and probably most importantly, exploring.
Now when I say exploring I mean in the literally sense and in terms of exercise. I walked literally everywhere. I can't count how many miles I walked this summer. To everywhere and to nowhere. I was truly drunk on the bliss of freedom to go and do whatever I want. And while I loved seeing the parts of Philly I may never get the chance to truly explore again, more than anything I am so thankful that this was the kick start to my weight loss. Again, the end of the previous semester was a bit more stressful than the first, and that compiled with unhealthy habits led to tremendous weight gain. So with a combination of excessive walking, frequenting the gym, and a diet change, I am happy to say that I have lost about 26 lbs. And while I absolutely should have lost more by now, I am so thankful that I made it this far; not many people can say they have. I feel so much better physically and emotionally. I have much more work to do in 2017, but with these newly established habits I know I'll go far; and I absolutely cannot wait to see how I'll look this time next year.
This amazing summer was just so incredibly amazing that I somewhat forgot that school was a thing, even when school was in full force. And that hurt me; a lot. I am in a much, much worse position now academically than I was last year. I managed to not get kicked out of school, but I know I have to work SO much harder than I have been. I am pretty nervous that there are only four months left and in 6 months or so I will be taking a career-defining exam, but anything is possible. I know God didn't lead me here to go this far; same goes for my weight loss.
I am also hoping, praying that our President-elect does not run this country to the ground.
I think I will leave off with three goals for this year:
(1) Do well on Step 1
(2) Lose 20 more lbs
(3) Go to Japan and come back for 3rd year
That's all I can think of for now. Tomorrow will be a people-filled day and while I am very nervous after having the apartment to myself for basically the last two weeks, I hope it will be fun.
And the song I choose is the amazing, booty-popping, Whistle by Black Pink. Enjoy~
Current Music: Black Pink - Whistle